I have to say that I have not grown accustomed to the drama in human life. People in general need to suck it the fuck up. I may just seem hardened because I know I am more strong willed than the average teenager, but I know everyone has it it in them. I am tired of the fights between parents that are one sided (my mom grounded me because I didn't clean the toothpast off of my mirrior! They are so unfair! wah!) Furthermore, quit making excuses about why your life sucks. If you want better for yourself, you will make the propper coarse corrections. It takes a strong person to stand up to someone they love. And an even stronger person to admit when they are wrong. To all of those out there considering suicide. Do it or don't. Quit bugging other people. For those out there who are consumed with rage at what people have done to them, just let it go. It is not worth getting arrested for revenge. There is enough violence in this world without adding your own to it. Finally, don't ask for advice then don't follow it. That annoys the living shit out of people when you do that.

I am not trying to dissuade anyone from doing what they see fit. I am mearly stateing my opinion about issues that I see most often on Xanga sites. I am also telling you why I am leaving.

However, I will keep the site active to keep up with my ranting on PraiseFoamyYourLordAndMaster. (Sorry for the long hiatus, I have actually been happy these last few months. I know it is uncommon for someone to not be talking of how depressed they are!)

As a parting comment I have to all of you who are reading this: Life is tough, get a sharper knife!

Much Later Days...
~Chrispy

Well, that was fun.

Who would have guessed that life would suck this much. I guess that is what happens when you treat everyone equaly: one little comment can be streched into something so wrong.

I am sorry for any pain I have caused to anoyone in the last few weeks. I was not myself. I was very upset at personal problems that had absolutley nothing to do with anyone on this island. I know at least one person zoed in on my slightly haunted persona. I am glad to know I have friends. And people need to stop calling my cell phone all the time. I went almost double over my minutes last month. If you must call me, call my home first, then my cell if I am not at home. (use common sense here, if you know I am not home call my cell!)

Next come my bitches about school! Why the hell do teachers give so much homework? I already have no life! This going to take away my personal time to relax and I will start being more stressed than I usually am. Abe in particular is pissing me off with all this bloody peading.

Band is starting to piss me off too. People need to stop cutting practice do do things like homecomeing and clubs. Your advisers are not going to kick you out because you miss one meating a week. And band is only two days durring the school week! For Chispy's sake come to practice. Without the majority of the band there it is worthless to practice. Then there are the bastard who commit to sports AND band who don't come to band practice so they can do their sport. I'm sorry, but commit to one OR the other, not both, unless it is a sport you can miss practice on band days.

Oh and before I forget, there are the little bastards that can't seem to let people know what the fuck they are doing until the last goddamn minute. These little pricks need to fucking die. You know who you are (and probably don't read this site, so I am just waisting my time.

It's Thursday? Well, Fuck me! Glad this week is over. Get to relax for a couple of days. Look on the vright side...I'm not all dead, jsut mostly dead. That meens I'm still a little alive. Hopefuly I can become mostly alive!

Later Days...
~Chrispy

~Thought for the day: Be mindful of the future, but not at the expence of the moment.

Okay, is has been a long time since last I updated. This school year is a pain in the ass. Algebra 2 is time consuming. I am stressing over English and Chemistry, because I HATE chemistry and I have heard that Mrs. Abe is an evil whore. I guess I shouldn't believe everything I am told, thoug.

Last week was fun, however. Nikki's Mother went out of town and she was forced to stay with me. I think it is funny how many of her friends and relatives critisized her , but never offered her a place to stay. They all think that we are irresponsable teens. I know I am not ready to live on my own, but I like to think that I am more responsable that the average person my age. It is also ironic that the first thing that most people do is critisize before thinking the whole situaton through.

I noticed that the person that was adressed in my last comment wither didn't read it or is ignorring it, even after spaciffically telling him. Oh well, like I say, people never change, they just modify their behavior.

I feel like an ass. For the first time in a year I didn't give my best effort at band practice. I usually put everything out of my mind and concentrate on practice, but today I just kept thinking of everything I have fucked up in the past few months and all the things I have done that are not like myself. Most of todays practice I did not march with proper posture or hold my insturment correctly and I only played when I had to. I feel like such a bad rolemodel. The underclassmen are supposed to look up to me as an upperclassman and I feel like I have let them down.

I have my first driver's education lesson tomorrow at three. My skills behind the wheel are improving. I am making turns more smoothly and my stopping is getting better and more precise.

Thats all folks! (at least for now.)

Later Days...
~Chrispy

Well, Its a new school year. And with it comes all of the things that make it wonderful. New classes and teachers. New clothes and school suplies. But also come the things that we could all live without: bullies. Now, what I am talking about are not the kinds of people who beat up little kids for their money or push them into lockers and trachcans, but the kind that single out people because of their grade level (or race, gender, social standing, etc.) and make fun of them. I saw onle little girl in tears because she couldn't find her class and noone would help her (if you are wondering, I helped her find her class and was almost late for my own.) A friend of mine told me of how he made another kid cry by calling her names like "fish" and yelling out "fresh fish." I was quite disapointed about this. He seemed proud of this achievement. This person keeps telling me that he dispises people that have to make others feel bad to get their kicks, but yet he seems to be one of them himself. I know how scarry it can be to be new to a school. I know even more how scary it can be when you don't know ANYONE. I remember when I was new to Highlands that I got lost everytime I went somewhere. And then came PCHS. I had only been  on O'ahu a couple of months and hardley knew anyone. I got lost a lot and the schedule was confusing. I was late to more than one class because I forgot the schedule or mistook one building for another. I still do it, I walk into one room thinking that it is one period and have to run out because it is the wrong day or I confused ond period for another.

All I am getting at is that people should be a little more kind to the freshmen. The are not asking for trouble, don't give it to them.

In other news, life is good. Concert Band should be fun this year, we are going to be playing tomorrow (yay! Get to play on the bari!) It is kind of stressful. I think Suko took the other bari home with her and didn't tell anyone. This is bad because Hentai needs it for Wind I. Anyhow, I get to play and that is all that matters.

Got to get a lot of papers signed for tomorrow and my parental units just got home, so...

Later Days...
~Chrispy

Wow. It is finally over. The show was fun. I like all the songs except Ramparts. It just sucks. Everyone thought the show was cool. Cant wait for the trip in November. We are going to Hilo. That and we got invited to the Parade of Roses in Pasadina in 2006. I am pissed off that I can't go. I would be section leader! Oh, well, if I play my cards right I may be ablwe to come and support them, depending on when it is.

Today should be good. I get to go see Nikki...and do laundry. I like doing laundry with her. I get paid by her mom. That and I get to cruise with my precious. Anyways, I better be going I need to eat and go to the Exchange before going with Nikki.

Later Days...
~Chrispy